I heard that quote and knew right away that it was my new mantra. I mean instantly. I cannot tell you how many times over the past few years I have felt that way.

Drive is much more than desire or want. Its belief in the impossible because screw the doubters or the naysayers. The words of failure are “that’s impossible” and “I can’t.” I hate those words.

I can, and its possible. I have battled with God over my children’s well being. Right about now the odds are against them. They are in three different homes, three different families. One in a group home. They have experienced loss after loss, trauma after trauma. Now it just keeps going. 

Abundant life and reconciliation seems impossible. Admittedly, for a few days I felt it was. Not anymore. Do you know why?

Because “My life don’t work like that, I’ll make it happen.” Not a matter of maybe or I hope so, but, they will be OK because I failed them once and when I get out of this place they will be nearly all adults, best believe I won’t fail twice. My life doesn’t work like that because we have control.

We are the ones who say whether or not were successful or happy. We either speak life or death and I, for one, am so sick of death. 

We are not nearly as fragile as we think we are. 

With Love
Jeff Utnage