If being in love is wrong, I don’t want to be right. I have always wondered if I would ever be worthy of love. Or if I would ever find it. Who would have thought I would be able to find SO many things in a world so dead set on your failure? As I sit in this 70 square foot cell I have been assigned to reside in, I tilt my head back and laugh at the freedom I have discovered in this world which strives to strip you of it.
So “what’s love got to do, got to do with it?” Well I know it is most definitely more “than a second hand emotion”. It is the #1 thing that has kept me sane these last 3 years. I used to wonder if it was possible to love myself without becomming a narcissist. After seeing a mental health specialist for a while to build my self image, I discovered I can. In fact this new information is what helped me become the woman I am today. Although I still have a negative self image at times, it is nowhere near what it use to be. I will forever be grateful for the mental health providers I have had. They gave me a desire to pursue life again. Although I am not perfect and have days where I still dislike my body, I can say, now that I am no longer in the closet, I love myself.
Self love isn’t the only love I am experiencing now. I am experiencing a newfound love for people. I’m opening my eyes to a whole new world of cultures and backgrounds that I have been closed to in the past. I know what it feels like to be shunned and I am doing my best to spread the love I now feel for myself and others, because love is possible, even in a world full of hate and indifference.
SPREAD THE LOVE.
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