As a trans prisoner I am hit with two labels that lead to psychological pathologization, or disability status, they are Gender Dysphoric (trans) and PTSD (prisoner). In the scope of the prisoner experience I am relegated time and again to a lower social status because of my “psychological” deficiencies and even in the social construct of prisoner to prisoner interactions there is a flavor of disability detection to determine ones value. Not only in prison but out of prison as well.
In many states there is protections in place to protect recently released prisoners from workplace discrimination, just like others with “disabilities”. While we cannot look in the DSM-V and see the psychological title of “Prisoner” there is a plethora of disability labels that can be applied to those who have committed crimes ranging from Sociopathic to Cleptomaniacal. When we look at Washington States offender classification system, Washington One, we see that it also understands offenders as naturally deficient making Classification Counselors responsible for rooting for information that determines that via “Risk Factors”.
This is the problem with system that are only designed to seek flaws as results. Any positive factors received are synthesized through a lens of “what’s wrong with you” which forces a constant state of disability and lower social manifestations. This also forces prisoners to view themselves through a psychological lens and by virtue, socially othered. This chronic abnormalization via a system of power and control produces its own social class of mentally deficiency and then offers “protections” in the name of antidiscrimination and “reform”.
I’ve not been one to pick up the antipsychiatry torch and carry that into my work but now I must at least reconcile it within myself or risk succumbing to biased and miscalculated psychological pathologization administered by a flawed algorithm with data input by someone who is not a psychiatrist or psychology professional. When I finally escape the chokehold of institutional pathologization I then fall back on Gender Dysphoric pathologization that also classifies me as disabled. Kind of like finding refuge from the fire inside the frying pan. Now if I want to feel normal I must do so through admitting I am abnormal and gender deviant at best. Now I’m just tired.
The attraction for this topic is not so much about community awareness or putting out some actionable for someone else, such as yourself, to ponder as it is to understand for myself what exactly it is I’m up against. When I’m solving problems for myself what hills am I choosing to “die” on and how long has that battle raged on? I came to prison with the goal of surviving and I’m finding myself at the intersection of disability rights, social justice, and the pathologization of social inequities.
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