Human Me

So You’re Coming to Prison.. by Christopher Havens

When I grew up, all I had ever heard or seen about prison was that it was filled with violence, rape, killings, deceit, and a layer of politics dictated by some “convict code”. And what could anyone do to prepare themselves for such a place?  My first feeling while on the bus to prison, while …

On the Annoying Topic of Prison Fame by Christopher Havens

Well, it’s good and it’s bad… and I certainly have a case of it. First, it feels good because people think what I do is amazing, and it feels good to know that of the thousands of prisoners everywhere, *I’m* one of the few that’s blazing the trail, showing people how time can be better …

What Does Life Look Like? by Christopher Havens

A few months back, I was asked by a friend about what life looks like for me in prison. This was my answer. I’m sharing this because my answer today would be much different. Events have been occurring for me, one after the other that bring me to the realization that there really are no …

Reflections of a Killing by Christopher Havens

There are so many things I wish I could have done differently. When I was in the court room I was a smug and remorseless wretch. But I’ve thought about this for years and years. Not a day goes by that I don’t reflect on the past so that I may work to never make …

On Dropping Out of School by Christopher Havens

I started high school in Washington State. Unfortunately, I was suspended early on for causing a panic in the computer labs. I wrote a macro and made all the text on the computer screens dance around the screen. Nobody knew how to fix it, and so they called a group of technicians. They didn’t find …

The Root Problem by Christopher Havens

I began using drugs at about 14 years of age, and I remember exactly why I did it. It was because I wanted to fit in with a certain girl. I suppose the root of my biggest problems was that I wanted to fit in. I was never very good in my social interactions while …

Beauty by Christopher Havens

Mental prison is a real thing, and much more powerful that the razor wire that surrounds me in my beautiful gated community. I know.. And the sad thing is, that I *didn’t* know for so long. I call that mediocrity. At least in my life.. living to make it until tomorrow. Always in a rush …

My Life Growing Up (Part 2) by Christopher Havens

I was in so much trouble that I decided to run away. And so I did. But I didn’t tell my parents or any of my family. I simply left with nothing but the shirt on my back. I was 15 years old, and left without a trace. After some time, my parents must have …

My Life Growing Up (Part 1) by Christopher Havens

I am the youngest of the two children of Randall Lee Havens and Terry Louise Hogle/Forte. I grew up in a military family. My mother enlisted in the United States Army when I was very young and so we never lived in the same place for more than three to four years. Throughout my childhood …