Human Me

Chocolate Cake In Prison by Ruth Utnage

No punch line here, just a lunch line. We get creative in prison such limited resources. Things like a chocolate cake for a birthday are non existent, or are they? Let me tell you how we (well, some of us, I’m like the prison version of Betty Crocker) make chocolate cake in prison without raw …

Covid Ruins Dandelions… by Rory Andes

In October or November (I have trouble remembering which) our big yard was shut down and turned into a tent city to help manage critical Covid cases in our prison. While I understood the necessity, I missed the opportunity to go outside in a bigger space and enjoy time with my friends. After several months …

Help Renee get housing

Hello my name is Renee Permenter. I am currently living in a transitional program for individuals releasing from prison. I released from prison after 11 years on July 7 2020. I have successfully completed the transitional program and now they have given me a few weeks to get out. The problem is… funding. I’ve only …

Free Krispy Kremes for Vaccinated Individuals? by Ruth Utnage

A friend of mine just told me that Krispy Kreme is offering some sort of promotion where vaccinated individuals can receive free donuts?!Worst year to be locked up! I love Krispy Kreme, in fact, I propose we rename Krispy Kreme’s glazed donuts “Manna”. Yup, just happened.I’d take a shot of some weird Moderna crap for …

Developing My Own Sense Of Femininity As A Trans Woman In A Man’s Prison by Ruth Utnage

Whew! That’s a mouthful of a title if I’ve ever written one. But it does capture my life right this minute, defining my own female identity, my own sense of womanhood in a literal world full of nearly all men- a men’s prison.Men’s prisons thrive off of, and were created by, misogynism and toxic masculinization. …

Typical Wednesday in Prison by Ruth Utnage

Do you ever wonder what a typical day in prison is really like? I cannot speak for everyone, there are a some…less motivated people that stay here as well. But as for me, this was my Wednesday:Woke up at 5 a.m. and enjoyed watching the stock market while I drank a cup of coffee and …

It’s Official Marshall is getting out June 24th

I am currently floating with fuzzy happiness, deep gratitude and absolute appreciation for all the love and support with the GoFundMe.com campaign. Wow, what an honor to be involved in such a beautiful experience. I admire each an everyone of you for your involvement in this celebration of my up an coming release from prison. …

Transgender, Prison, PREA, Privacy and Media Coverage by Ruth Utnage

TransgenderI am a woman. Some would like to me clarify I am a “trans” woman, but to me I am simply a woman. Also, I am incarcerated. I used to be an angry person who inflicted violence on others in several ways. I am no longer that person. I know what it means to hurt …

Flexibility, Literally by Ruth Utnage

I’ve been working on my flexibility, mainly my hips. I spend time each day doing various stretches that will elongate my muscles and open my hips enough to allow for me to do the splits. While I am not there yet, I can stand in front of my cell beds (there are bunk beds) and …