Human Me

My Horoscope Told Me… by Ruth Utnage

My horoscope told me that this was an exciting time for me. That I should really focus on facing my fears and watch my life seriously change. I could be critical and point out the vagueness of it. I could remind myself that it was in a weekly TV Guide. Those are options. You know …

His Name Is Van… by Rory Andes

Everyone calls him “Uncle”, yet neither he nor anyone else knows why. While he doesn’t particularly care for the name, he’s become accustomed to it. Even many of the prison staff know him as Uncle. But it’s a good fit for his caring nature. He has that vibe of a family friend you might have …

Integrity by Ruth Utnage

We all have different ‘selves’. A shy self, a jealous self, a loving self, so many selves. I, myself, strive to integrate all my ‘selves’ with one another.The integration of my ‘selves’…that is integrity.To help support or share in my release, please visit my gofundme created by some unusually wonderful folx in the community at:https://www.gofundme.com/f/support-ruth-utnages-reentry-after-prisonThanks.With …

Zoom Certification… by Rory Andes

Even though I am incarcerated, I see the pain that comes from having to connect to others through Zoom video software. The pain isn’t from the software itself, but those who are completely unqualified to use it. During this legislative session for Washington state, many of us civically minded inmates view countless hours of testimony …

Rejuvenated By Nuclear Love by Marshall Byers

My living quarters, aka the shoebox, storage unit, and my personal favorite, the mini suite, is literally bulging with nuclear love in the form of words expressed on notes by beautiful people. Here are their words to me.My brother, thanks for being the example for so many, including me. With who you are and all …

A Little Advice To All Trans Women, Especially Those With…Histories by Ruth Utnage

There is a book by Glennon Doyle called:Untamed: stop pleasing and start livingIt was sent to me by a book club friend (thank you gurl, you’re a goddess!) and it is seriously hitting my soul.I’ve read a lot of books during my incarceration, I mean a bunch, and some have impacted me so profoundly that …

Another Possible Perspective… by Rory Andes

The shootings in the Atlanta area spas last week, killing eight, is a horrendous tragedy. A senseless loss of life beyond human comprehension… Most media is centered around race and as someone who sees the racial divide in my everyday life, I do think that Asian Americans are unduly suffering at the hands of hate. …

Ways To Minimize Stress by Marshall Byers

Spend the entire duration of a sunset trying your best to describe all the colors in the sky. Write thank you letters to everyone you know, I challenge you to write to that one person you’ve been avoiding. Brake that long silence, but no emails, they are very impersonal, hand written only.You don’t have to, …

Life, Done Right (inspired by Glennon Doyle’s “Untamed: stop pleasing and start living) by Ruth Utnage

I have thought my entire life that because I feel I am broken. I have sought to silence those feelings my entire life, without success. Failure to me was feeling something besides nothing. The quintessential human was stroic and strong and there I was feeling things. I was doing ‘life’ wrong.I was plain and simply …

How Soon Is Too Soon To Say “I Love You” To Someone? by Ruth Utnage

Are humans not more valuable than ice cream?If you’re looking for a specific time frame to say “I Iove you”, you’re not going to get that here. What you are going to get is a perspective on what I believe love means between 2 people and how NOT to regret saying it first.I love flowers, …