Human Me

Relationships In Prison And LGBTQ Folx: The Value (and reality) Of Intimacy In Prison by Ruth Utnage

A cup of water in the desert is more valuable than a cup of water in normal life. Prison is like that desert. Physical touch is forbidden. As a trans woman living in a men’s prison the temptation and downright need to touch is problematic. I crave physical touch like I crave food and water.The …

Tokenize Me (but tell me first!) by Ruth Utnage

I value direct honesty. I understand that what motivates humans is intrinsic. What I value most is when someone tells me what they’re really after. Cold, unadulterated truth. If someone comes to me with some plan to make a million bucks so they can donate half of it to some cause my immediate thought is …

Lovebird Hitchhikers by Ruth Utnage

When I was 17 and sure of myself I decided to claim my space in adulthood by taking my pregnant 18 year old girlfriend, we’ll call her H, soon to be wife, and hitchhiking from Washington to Nebraska. We were a mixed race couple with no real sense about what lie ahead for us. She …

Loving Ourselves Enough To Tell Ourselves “No” by Ruth Utnage

I watched a video in college that a professor brought in of Will Smith giving this motivational talk ( I don’t remember the name of the video, sorry!! ). In it he says “you have to love yourself enough to tell yourself no”. I’ve repeated that as a mantra in my head. Tough decisions for …

Social Mathematics Experiment, 1/22/21… by Rory Andes

During our Friday math club, of all the cool material we went over (like Ruth’s overlay of Pascal’s Triangle onto dimensional subtraction), something else became an interesting topic… Math books, apparently, evolve. There was a book in the room that we talked about with a print date in the 2000s, but it was a reprint …

No Justice, No Heat… by Rory Andes

Every year during the winter, we have occurrences where the heat may go out. It may be out for several days or maybe come and go until they get it fixed. This breakdown in the steam system is to be somewhat expected. We use a thirty year old system and it serves an entire prison. …

Is It The Men Or The Ideals We Fight For? by Ruth Utnage

Two groups meet at a significant location to defend the honor of one of two political figures. Prepared to fight for that one individuals spoken word and the promise of action. I can see it now, civil war all over again. Our country is on the verge of a second civil war and the battleground …