Well, it's good and it's bad... and I certainly have a case of it. First, it feels good because people think what I do is amazing, and it feels good to know that of the thousands of prisoners everywhere, *I'm* one of the few that's blazing the trail, showing people how time can be better used. I'm an example to a lot of people and it's nice to grasp the idea that I could be serving my time like everyone else. Instead, people are telling me that I'm the anomaly that's showing the other anomalies how it's done. That feels good. And it's also neat to get messages from admin at DOC headquarters congratulating me on my endeavors. I get that from staff here as well.
People mistake my drive for something else entirely. But this is another thing where the goods outweigh the bads. There has to be a "me" so that once people see that I've stayed consistent even out of prison, then my whole stigma in here (the annoying one) will act as a huge inspiration for other prisoners. I'll become a story that people tell, and maybe future guys might try modeling their own behaviors from certain aspects of mine. That's potentially a powerful and wonderful thing. :) It feels odd to be *this* guy. But I don't know of any other way I'd be. I'm surprised, truly surprised, that I'm one of the few who choose to truly *live* while carrying out their sentence. Why the heck is that?!
So the whole "prison famous" thing is strange to grasp. And it's carrying out into the community too, where my story is becoming known by hundreds of thousands of people. And to be perfectly real with you, here's where my opinion drastically changes. This is important. Because so many people are hearing about me, and because most all of them are inspired about it, I am in a unique position to make small sociological shifts in perception. Long held notions of how prisoners are and how prisons function. I'm going to try changing how society views "the prisoner".
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