Human Me

How Do You Know Someone Has Changed? by Jeff (Ruthie) Utnage

I have a personal stake in this question. I do not want to live under the stigma of prisoner forever. To be a convicted criminal means I am ostracized and outcast from normal society. It means that while I belong in the category “Incarcerated” I am less than. When I get out I belong in …

Get Up and Grind by Jeff (aka Ruthie) Utnage

Will Smith once said “99% of all people are unwilling to do what it takes to accomplish their dreams.” Now get up and grind. Do the hard task of showing up, even when you just want to lay in bed or do anything else, grind. Subscribe, Follow, Interact, Comment and change YOUR community.With LoveJeff (aka …

Plugging The Hole by Jeff (Ruthie) Utnage

Alright, maybe I could have chosen a different title, but if I can’t mess with you guys who can I mess with? Actually we are talking about brain stuff.Did you ever have a moment where you felt like singing? How about praying? It gets triggered by some event or word or ? It is kind …

Make People Tired Just By Looking At You: Be A Mountain To Be Climbed Rather Than A Speed Bump To Drive Over by Jeff (aka Ruthie) Utnage

What I love about my LGBT sisters and brothers is that we are full of giants. I have drawn so much strength from those folks who have spent their lives discovering exactly who they are (and sometimes who they are not!). I heard a speech today that included the words in the title, but stated …

Our Gay’ly Bread: Enemies Serve No Purpose by Jeff (aka Ruthie) Utnage

Sometimes in life people do not like us, even hate us. It happens. We are not going to be everyone’s favorite person. Believe me, I know. But as believers of God and receivers of God’s grace and forgiveness we are not to be brought down in the turmoil of hatred or enemies. Remember David and …

Oh Anxiety, How I Loathe You by Ruth Utnage

When I was a small child I was always stealing (and wearing) woman’s clothes. I say that and right this second I am embarrassed. My cheeks are red and my heart is racing and there is not anyone in this cell but me. The pull to remain closeted about my transgender identity is extremely strong. …

To my dear friends, family, and the amazing people who’ve shown me support this year by Rory Andes

This was a challenging year, but one full of many successes and a few new experiences. From working with students at the University of Washington, to meeting mathematicians from Italy and Boston, to being given an opportunity to write, to being a founding part of a statewide reentry program and even getting a promotion at …

Need Some Help: Can You Answer These Five Questions by Ruth Utnage

I am taking a class where we have a business plan competition and I need market data. Actual money is at stake as the winner gets a $500 grant for start-up money (after release and completing some required steps). 20 or so CEO’s, Entrepreneurs, and Venture Capitalists are coming in to oversee and judge our …

Becoming Human Again: What Does Inmate Rehabilitation Look Like Exactly? by Ruth Utnage

According to Bureau of Justice Statistics there were 2.2 million people incarcerated in Federal and State prisons and county jails nationwide. An additional 4.6 million additional people were on probation or parole at the end of 2015. That’s a staggering 6.8 million people that are actively involved with the criminal justice system. This number grows …

Who I am, I’m Pleased To Introduce… by Jeff Utnage/Ruthie Utnage

I would like you to meet somebody who has been afraid to reveal herself for a relatively long time, her name is Ruthie Anne Utnage. Its not an alter ego or a nickname, its not a pseudo-name or pen name, its me.I compromised with myself in 2011 and said “I’m gay”, That allowed me to …