Human Me

Inspired But Tired: Running On Empty With A Long Ways To Go

I am stressed and I have to many obligations. Rather, to many people believe I am all about them! As more and more becomes expected of me I am running into a serious problem, time and energy. A therapist once told me I have to take “me” time. But “me” time was this mysterious, elusive idea that …

Teachable Moments Are For Humans To Experience, Don’t Miss Them, They Are Precious

A young man has been coming around more and more. This is an indicator that something is on his mind. I speculated a multitude of reasons but settled on one of two things, he is either gay-curious or he is just fascinated with being able to interact with a real life queer. He is from …

Using Reward-Based Correction In Prisons: Punish The Negative & Ignore The Positive VS Reward The Positive & Correct The Negative

Reward based systems are used all throughout our culture to promote good things. One such instance is companies who track performance by their emoployees. They set standard goals that are universal and measured to everyone. When an employee reaches whatever goal or milestone then they recieve whatever reward correlates to each designated goal. This type of …

Trying Not To Think About It

I had a busy Thanksgiving. I went to work at 7 in the morning and didn’t leave until 7:30 that night. I did everything but celebrate. Holidays are rough for most inmates because they represent what’s good about our American culture. My son turns 13 today, without me. I tried and tried to not think about it, …

The Love No Matter What Experiment

I conducted an experiment on my own. Without telling people it was an experiment, I told everyone that I did and didn’t have problems with that I loved them. That I cared.I ran into plenty of situations that could have resulted in tragedy. Instead, I openly forgave, sometimes swallowing my pride, often having to take …

Five Year Plan: Gay Goal Setting For My (Hopefully) Very Gay Future

November marks a mile marker for me, I am under five years left in prison. I realized this yesterday when I looked at my watch and it read 11-22. My parole date is 11-2021.I try to get prepared for the outside world and I think I’m doing an OK job, a decade isn’t that long. …

Addressing The World About The United States: Change Seems Inevitable, Bigotry Has Reignited, Civil War On Our Horizon?

When I first heard Trump was running for office I was excited. He represented change that was much needed and ultimately that prospect got him elected. As his policies and constituents came forward I had to readjust my view on him. Trump, being Trump does not scare me or represent turmoil. However, his policies and …

Tired Of People Being To Critical Of Your Goals? Rearrange Your Thinking…

I have had many naysayers along my journey to get an LGBT Peer Support Group. More people then not told me why it would never happen. Even more told me why it shouldn’t happen. Now that it IS happening the naysayers are less frequent but the critics have come out of the woodwork. Many people have …

My First Play: Tacoma Christian Church’s :The Open Door

I got to see my first play, my first professionally done play, that is. It was about making a decision about your life, choosing heaven over allowing hell. The opening scene was the most touching for me. Music begins to play and a woman in a sparkly outfit, like an angel outfit, comes out and begins …