Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Powerful Testimonies Come From Negativity

I am involved with a program here called The Redemption Project. Its been life changing for me. Every inmate who chooses to pursue the program beyond its first class has proven that they want to make a difference in themselves and their communities. Its like a filtering process for leaders. I don't know if its creators meant for it to end up as such, but, in the process of making men aware of their negative actions and its effects; those same men decide to make serious changes. In here that takes courage, tenacity. Your going against the grain of prison. You've seen the movies.
No one in prison is guilty. Its a training ground for violence and hate. If you weren't a criminal before you came here, you'll be one by the time you leave. So to take responsibility and then advocate for such things publically, that's a bold move, it immediately separates you.
I bring this up because Redemption has been growing. While new programs and branches and workshops are being created by inmates, we put some of ourselves in those same things. This is where our testimonies come in. 
Our past actions were awful. So when we use this sentence to seriously reflect on what got us Herr, when we make changes in our lives, we have to face the tough moments in ourselves. Like traumas, shortcomings, learned flaws. Any contributing factor. Some things have to be dealt with sooner because they happen while were locked up. This brings on a whole new kind of pain. 
I heard a man tell me a few days ago that while he was locked up his daughter was murdered by her new stepfather. Could you imagine that pain? No man should endure such a thing. But this man, he is using that as a tool to prevent others from his mistakes. He knows that if he had been free, his daughter might still be alive. The guilt and shame this man carries brings about an honest will to change. He's authentic and real, transparency is prevalent in him. He's not the only one either. There are dozens of us, we are concentrated in Stafford Creek. All filtered through The Redemption Project. If you ever want to test your compassion, talk to us. We are not using excuses for our mistakes. We are using our mistakes to create positivity in any way possible. 
These men have become my Dads and Brothers, my Children and Friends. We are family, I respect them immensely. I hope one day you will as well. We have helped change one another's lives, maybe we can help you to, maybe you can help us.

With Love
Jeff Utnage 823469

Our LGBTI Event Is Almost Here: June 30th, 2016, History Will Be Made

June 30th, 2016 the prison I'm at will hold an LGBTI event themed "Solidarity In Pride". I am seriously excited for it to get here. 
I like that so many people are coming out of the woodwork to support such a thing. I still run across a lot of discomfort from both staff and inmates. But nothing that cannot be ignored. 

Wish us luck and hopefully everyone has a great time, maybe even bridge a few gaps. 

With Love
Jeff Utnage

Gay Men Don't Want To Be Women

I was talking to someone here and in our conversation I brought up a joke about having scepters and tiaras at our LGBT event here this year. When the individual responded they said "Well I don't know why you'd want those, women don't wear them".
It was a reminder of the stigmas and lack of understanding that is still there. I wanted to clarify. Just because a man wants to wear make up or have long hair or even wear heels and a dress doesn't mean he's attempting to be a woman. Maybe he just feels great in heels and a dress! I can't decide if some women are threatened by this idea or if its just a new thing that's not broken in yet. Its not socially acceptable. In order to make it "normal" it simply takes tenacity and time. Something most members of the LGBT community possess. 
Wanting to be the opposite sex or feeling like you were born in the wrong body is known as Transgender ism. This is something that is incredibly difficult to deal with and they don't need any more negative attention then what they get already. But, perhaps their journey would be less socially traumatic if wearing clothes that weren't traditional for your gender was more socially accepted. 
Just because a man wants to paint his nails or have a pony tail or wear jewelry doesn't mean he's attempting to imitate a woman. I'll say it again, maybe he just feels great about himself when he dresses according to how he wants. 
Now, don't get me wrong. I don't think its a good idea to send your children to school in attire that's not socially acceptable. Like putting your son in a dress. However, unless that's what he wants and he's old enough/mature enough to know what the societal consequences of that potentially could be. Some children have a good grasp of what that means, while some don't. Parents need to use their heads. Just because you wanted a little boy and you got a little girl doesn't mean you can change their sex by dressing them how YOU want. Its their choice, let them make it.
It is worth noting that some cultures will practise this. If they are born too many boys or girls sometimes they will raise their next child as the gender they have chosen. I don't have an opinion on this practise negatively or positively. Its just a note and reminder to everyone that we should remain culturally cognitive. I don't recommended this for American culture or any other culture that doesn't find this acceptable as it could lead to serious repercussions both mentally and legally. Because there is no tolerance of it there is not a support system in place to nurture everyone involved in cultures that don't practise such things.
Men who want to feel pretty and they are willing to cut a new path, I think they should dress and act how they feel and if people can't accept that well that's their problem. Its not like were not used to being misunderstood anyway. Oh my, you don't like me! Gasp! Say it isn't so!

With Love
Jeff Utnage 

Too Busy To Be Stressed!

I am very busy. I say this as more of sigh of relief, reassurance that its possible. I am very busy. Then I prioritize and realize I just don't have enough time in the day to give real time to everything. So I have big projects that are taking a long time. Because more and more have sprung up I now have multiple 'big' projects. 
I am very busy and it is stressing me out. This is a more realistic assessment of my situation. There is only one problem, I'm just to dang busy to allow it to hinder me. Its a snare I have been caught in too many times. I am tired of getting caught in the overwhelmed stage of life and then having to restart after a supreme meltdown. So instead of allowing this to happen, let's regroup now, while I still recognize I am struggling.
I have things that are extremely important to me and things I'm doing just because. The 'just because' category are things I don't want to do, but have agreed to do for one reason or another. So this is what I'm going to do, June is Pride month and I have many people within these walls who want to help make it special. I am going to focus on Pride month because its the most urgent for me and the most important to me at the moment.

So don't be afraid to try a new tactic, a new way of dealing with a situation. Its all good to experiment.

With Love

Jeff Utnage 823469

Doing Something Familiar, Just For Your Own Sanity: I Made Chicken Noodle Soup

As a young man I was a picky eater. I liked high fat foods. Hot dogs and sweet cereals, ice cream and chocolate syrup. But my Mom would make chicken noodle soup. She would make home made noodles and boil the chicken carcass down to make a base and then add water and seasonings and chicken. I would smell it simmer all day. The noodles were unspectacular in sight but the texture and flavor is what I liked best. They were thick, you knew you were biting into a noodle. I loved eating that soup. It was a constant no matter where we lived or how long we were going to be there.
It is also something I miss very much being incarcerated. So when I had a chance to make it here, I jumped on it. I work in an area that feeds a particular group of people who purchase meal tickets and since we had left over chicken, I made my Mothers soup. 
I mixed the flour with the egg, recalling her verbal recipe from years ago "They are simple Jeff, one cup flour, one egg and a drop of milk, mix by hand.". I did just that, only a triple batch. Rolling out my dough with everyone watching surprised I would even attempt such a thing. 
Once I got everything together and it tasted pretty close to how I remember it, I started having people try my Mothers soup. It was like having guests over for dinner for the first time in years. We were laughing and joking, snacking on little pieces of fruit and coffee. I wasn't in prison, I was a busy man who was doing something humane. It was like I was sharing a piece of my soul with every customer, each bowl I watched go out the window was another vulnerability. It felt great to care.
I have a friend out there who takes one or two weekends a month and feeds the homeless. He takes simple recipes that he can stretch and creates hot food. His sense of purpose and humanity is what drives him on to do such things. 
I want to encourage you to do things that will invoke your sense of humanity. Make a favorite cookie that your fond of, or a cake or a casserole, then share it. Not the recipe, the product. Don't do it for the kudos, do it for the sake of vulnerability. Do it because it will open your heart to another human being. Its basic and cliché, but please try it. Make enough cookies to pass out at work, just to do it because your aunt did it for you. Share that memory with those around you. I certainly enjoy it.

With Love
Jeff Utnage

Taking The Long Way Home

When I was younger I left home. It was in this round about way that left my Mother, helpless to stop me. I went on vacation with my girlfriends family and ended up skipping out on them halfway through the trip. I hitchhiked to Nebraska with my girlfriend in tow. It was an amazing adventure while it was still just adventure.
Eventually reality set it in that we were two broken children who should have stayed home in Washington. Be that as it may, we eventually migrated back to Washington. 
Now, I find myself on another journey. One in which I didn't know my destination. I left for death and found life. Sounds strange, but its true. I remember when I knew I was going to prison, I just knew I was going to die there and all the horrible ways it could happen played over and over in my mind. The shame of what I had done, I just couldn't live with it. So I poisoned myself after careful research. I took a dosage with 33% more then I needed for my bodyweight, drank a beer and waited. I survived through it by the grace of God and the love of those who cared when I simply didn't. I woke up in the hospital and was angry they had recovered me. I was furious with the doctor. I didn't speak for days. I just stared out the window trying to figure out what to do next.
That was over five years ago. I reflect on that time of my life frequently and thank God that He had a plan when I didn't. What I find genuinely shocking is the fact that I got saved, then came out completely. It was like God knew I needed to release that beast of a burden before I could begin fixing what was broken in me. I was definitely broken. God nurtured me through my coming out process, through the beginning of my journey. 
Your journey may be one that is scary. A whole life change may be in store for you. In the beginning I would rather have died then face myself, but now, I am so glad I faced it. Joyfully, I didn't have to face it alone.
I want to leave you with this, you don't have to face it alone. Whether its addiction, coming out, family problems, sexual problems, deviancies, criminal problems...I don't care what it is, I promise you I personally will be your friend through it. You may lose everything while you journey onward, you may not even know where your going or what you'll become. Know that even though I don't know you, if you get ahold of me I will not leave your side as a faithful friend because I know what its like to be lonely and afraid of what's next. 
We have a loving Creator, it would be an honor to journey with you, whoever you are. 

With Love
Jeff Utnage

Homosexuality & Christianity: I Want A Public Debate

I have been told that I cant write a book explaining what the Bible says about homosexuality. I can write about how its helped me personally, but I won't be published by a publishing house unless I have a theological background or an established following. I don't bring that up to complain about it, but to show an example. Now, before I go on, disclaimer: I respect theology, I believe current students of theology have good hearts and intentions. 
Theological studies are not important to knowing and understanding God. Just because some guy goes to a college somewhere doesn't make him an authority on Gods will. It makes him an authority on mans doctrine. Particularly the doctrine of the college. Which means that whoever created the college or school has an agenda. Sorry, but it does. They believe their doctrine is truth. Cool, go for it. Just because you believe its truth doesn't mean it is. Look at our current presidential candidate Trump, he has ideas he legitimately believes in, doesn't mean their entirely correct though. Maybe they are, who knows. 
I don't believe that a degree in Theology makes you bad or anything other then educated. Educated people are needed in the world, especially in the religious and doctrinal world. A place where degrees are coveted and relationships with God are more important and taken more seriously because you have a degree. See my point yet? 
You aren't going to get anything special from God because you attended seminary school. Or because you have a degree in theology. Man certainly respects you, good for your habitation on Earth and in the flesh. Anyone who can comprehend can read the Bible and study its meaning. God never intended man to create doctrinal beliefs. Only Satan. Doctrines created divisions. Division is from Satan. I can learn to be a good Christian by establishing a relationship with Christ. Right? Anyone going to dispute that? No college degree is going to get me to heaven, right? Is it not believing in Jesus and His death and resurrection as a living perfect sacrifice for my sins, once, for all? 
Having established that in Gods eyes I am just as qualified to speak on His will as any other man, I'm going to. Honestly, I don't need anyone's permission or approval to do so. My agenda is simple: I want people to know Gods love, and all of it. Gods love is unconditional. Got that? Here let me repeat it, unconditional. Now, I challenge any preacher or anyone else to tell me He doesn't. I think this should be debated publically. Openly and honestly.
Perhaps more importantly, just because a guy gets a degree or stands on a pulpit doesn't mean he is perfect. Don't let any man tell you that your inferior or not good enough or to gay or any other garbage to get into heaven.
Believe that Jesus was real, believe He died and rose from the dead. Having trouble with that? No problem, just ask for help believing. 

With Love
Jeff Utnage. 

Allowing Fear Of Rejection Cripple You: Your Voice As LGBT People Should Not Be Silenced

I hate fear. I have been held back by fear my whole life. Fear of rejection, fear of falling short, fear of pain, fear of loss. All kinds of fear. Prison was a good thing for me in regards to fear. 
I came into prison scared to death. I was afraid of all that I had heard and seen on TV. I was sure I was going to get sliced open or raped or dropped off the tier. I have had some terrifying experiences, don't get me wrong, but I have had to face them head on. I have had to look someone who hates me right in the eye. 
I want you to know before I continue that I still get scared. I still have doubts and worries. I still stay up at night begging God to help me in some situations. But, I fear personal failure more then any person.
This is what I know, let's just get transparent; I know that I am always going to have an uphill battle because of my past. I never accomplished much because of fear. Mainly because of body image issues, self confidence and not wanting to face my sexual identity. Coming to prison put me lower then low. I had nothing left to lose. I had lost my family, every friend, my future, any chance of a relationship (I still struggle with this) and frankly my will to survive. What was left to lose? I had no pride, no self worth, I had already lost anything I cared for. I let fear of ridicule or embarrassment cripple me. I let this go on for a few years in here. 
There came a point when I was facing hater after hater, day after day of taking the full brunt of constant ridicule and hatred that I just got fed up with it. I had to decide that I had had enough of it. I realized that if you allow others to influence you you'll amount to their failures. You can't do what they couldn't. The want you to see their misery. Your feelings mean nothing, not to them. Why? Because what you've gone through can't be as bad as what they've gone through. Its easier to point at me and my faults and differences to ease their pain. As long as I stay embarrassed and crippled they feel superior.
Enough of that! When you accomplish something they won't cheer you on. They won't be there to apologize or learn. They just keep on pulling you down, backward. Don't let fear of rejection hold you back. Once you start your path to victory your new friends will be those traveling the same path. More importantly, you'll be traveling for yourself. Your only fear should be the death of spirit. There is only One who can end your spirit.
Don't be afraid to risk it all for your dream. In fact, big dreams require big investments. Like all of you. Every last piece.

Go get it, With Love
Jeff Utnage 823469

My Child Is Gay/Lesbian/Transgender: Have I Done Something Wrong?

First of all, this is a legitimate question. As a parent you should continuously question your role in your child's life, no matter if they are 3 or 30. No one has parenting perfection. 
I will answer this question pretty directly, you haven't done anything wrong. This is a common fear among parents, especially parents that come from strict upbringings. For instance, if your parents are from a small Korean province and migrated here 30 years ago their belief system is quite different from an American upbringing. Tradition and the roles of men and women are ingrained in their minds as foundational rules, rules that cannot be broken. Like the law of gravity on Earth, what goes up, must come down. Likewise, if you are male you must marry a woman. 
There are many variations of this. As children we must also be as tolerant as we are asking our parents to be. This is an opportunity to learn for most parents. They simply need to be educated in a progressive society. Most parents know that societal rules are changing. They know they are way behind the curve and have no idea what to do. Its like that law of gravity being suddenly broken, you drop a rock and it goes up instead of down, its going to be shocking. So, be patient with them and open to answering questions. Don't be discouraged when they are disbelieving of your sexuality. Just hold firm, but lovingly. 
Parents, you didn't do anything wrong. Your children's character is a result of you, not their sexuality or skin color or hair color. They are predetermined. Now, your child can choose to engage in straight or gay sex. We have that choice, where we dont have the choice is if we like it. Fathers, your straight, right? If homosexuality is a choice then by that same logic you could sleep with a man AND enjoy it. Seem unrealistic? That's because it is. You didn't choose to like women, it just is. Its the same for lesbian and gay and bisexuals. We didn't choose it, it just is. Trying to be straight for a gay man is dangerous territory pyschologically and has potential for very serious mental health problems. 
For example: Tell a white man he must be black to be right. The idea is ridiculous, but imagine the confusion for a mind to try and actually practice such a thing. You can see your clearly white, but in order to please anyone, you must at least not admit your white, or want to be white and that every day you must get a little darker. You don't need to be a Doctor to see the danger here. Its the same concept for your homosexual child. 
I will warn you, your children are precious and you will regret not accepting them for their sexuality. Those who repress their sexual identity encounter depression, suicide, anger, anti-social behavior and many others. You are of much more benefit to them as an advocate then an enemy. 
Remember that they need help figuring this out to. For some, many, coming out is scary and liberating. Its amazing and stressful, all at the same time. Its a beautiful road that is full of surprise, love and dangers. Your child cannot choose to be straight. You cannot teach them to be straight. You cannot teach them to be gay. You can teach them self acceptance or self hate. You can teach them good coping mechanisms or bad ones. How do you handle tough and scary situations? Do you go smoke a cigarette, maybe a joint, drink a beer, do you get angry and lash out? They will too, regardless of what you tell them, its what you SHOW them they'll remember. Show them tolerance and love and they'll do the same. 
As for the religious aspect, this is touchy but I will address it briefly. Remember that The Bible is written by God, Likewise the Quran. What is God? What does The Almighty stand for? Is it hatred and intolerance? Did not God send atonement so that each man and women will work out their own salvation? Your job is to love, not condemn. You profit God nothing by putting a wedge or ultimatum in between God and one of His children. In fact, by doing so you will face a harsher punishment. God knows all, He doesn't need you to speak for Him, He doesn't need you to point out another's anything. "Work out your own salvation with fear and trembling". Leave the judgement to God because we're no good at it anyway. Do the fun stuff with your kids, no matter the ages, just love them. You'll do well in front of the Father to have simply loved your children through everything. 
As a parent if you need help, its OK. You are not alone. My mother has been through it all. I would encourage anyone struggling to email her at vutnage@gmail.com

With Love
Jeff Utnage 823469

Monday, June 20, 2016

Fathers Day: 

Fathers day is always a little rough for me. I am getting better at managing it though. This time of year commercials are all geared at tugging on our heart strings and highlighting those special moments between a Father and his children. All of which remind me of what I gave up. 
I loved being a Father. My kids are apart of me and without them I am not whole. I made a terrible mistake that was influenced by so many outside factors. Ultimately my crime was optional, I hate that I chose it. This day reminds me of my biggest mistake in life. 
I never had a Dad growing up. Not physically anyway. Now I look back and see God everywhere. But that's been fairly recent that I look to God as my Father. I have a name of my alleged biological father and have spoken to several members of his family through the years. All of which told me the same thing, stop looking for him. Eventually I gave up when I called his brother. I looked in the phone book for his area and called every number that was local to him and matched his name. Eventually I got his brother, he wasn't to surprised to hear my side. He just told me I didn't want to know who he was that I would be disappointed. "Your better off not knowing him". were his last words. I am pretty sure that his brother was there that day. 
I just stopped looking after that. I haven't connected with him but its no fault of my own. It wasn't for lack of trying, that's for sure. 
Perhaps foolishly I would still gladly accept the man in my life. I don't judge him anymore. As a man I understand mistakes happen. After all he was only 16. Hardly a man wanting a child. Maybe he is scared of me, maybe he is just...I don't know. Regardless, I would still gladly get to know him without reservation. 
I think that having an open heart for him might be my way of hanging onto reconciliation with my own children. I have faith that one day I will see them again and they will see I have been changed. I am not the same man I once was. I am no longer the man that was their Father. I am much different. Having hope and open arms for my own biological dad gives me hope that if I forgive him, maybe my kids will forgive me? So Kenny Baker from Blair, NE: Should you ever come across this post, challenge issued, your move. I will remain waiting with open arms. 
Nowadays I look to God and Jesus as my comfort and Fatherly figure. Though, since my Mother raised me on her own, she is my Dad. I send her the Fathers Day card. Though I do wish I could send one to God Himself. Wouldn't that be something, letters to God? Get to heaven and He's got a whole shoe box full of our letters. 
I have a new life with new goals and a new extended family. I am over excited to know every single person I can. I have lost so much through my mistakes and want people to know who I am, really. So, happy Fathers Day to all of you. Especially the ones who don't think they deserve it. Never give up hope, being a Father is a mindset. Remember that.

With Love
Jeff Utnage
6-19-2016
Orlando: Has Become A Hot Topic In The Washington Prison System
In the wake of the Orlando tragedy I find myself running into conversation about the killer. On one hand many are convinced he was a cold blooded premeditating murdered. On the other people believe he was obviously homosexual. 
The main conclusion? Most I run into believe he was homosexual and ashamed. That the only way to reconcile himself to his God was to do that...obviously irrational. 
I want to point something out to everyone, not just the LGBT community. In fact, I'm talking directly to religious leaders here: 
Do you see what is happening? Your teaching love, but conditionally. God loves you if....God loves you, no matter what, as long as your not...
You see you can't teach that God loves anything conditionally. Under conditional love we will always violate said condition, its inevitable. God, no matter what title He carries, loves us UNCONDITIONALLY. Do you even know the meaning of that? It means there is NOTHING that can separate us from the love of God. Nothing, not homosexuality, not stupidity, not bigotry or even teaching people to conditionally love. God is heartbroken by us. What we've done as a collective with His Word is twisted and self serving. Which is against everything that God is. It is so sad that a man could be so ashamed of himself that he feels the only way to redeem himself to God is to massacre those that are like him. No God I serve teaches that. Its sickening that pastors and religious leaders are still trying to teach a twelfth commandment that doesn't exist. We were given ten by God and then Jesus came and summed them up, love, love love. Which commandment do I break by being gay, or transgender...or lesbian or bisexual or pansexual or intersex or asexual? As if any of us had a choice to begin with. Any fool can point a finger, but its Gods love that reads our hearts. 
Religious teachers need to get a grip. I have a hard time going to church in prison as a gay man. I walk in the room and I immediately get bombarded with stares and glares. But I think its important to go to these places and force familiarization. Forcing religious leaders to see us as equals. I don't know what the answers are. But this has to stop. Maybe its time I start going to church again?

With Love
Jeff Utnage 

Friday, June 17, 2016

6-18-2016
Dealing With Hatred & Bigotry As LGBT Men & Women
What do you do when you are hated passively or even openly? Do you have an arsenal of whit? Maybe you beat the tar out of them? Maybe you employ the 'ignore them' platform? What is the appropriate response?
I wonder this often. I think about whether or not I want to change their views. Maybe I just want them to shut up. Maybe I want them to open up a little. Sometimes I don't even know. I will say this, I would rather deal with the open and non-hidden hatred then the passive behind-your-back hatred. When you think you have a friend or at least not an enemy and they turn out to be toxic. At least with the open bigot you don't waste your time.
A big part of me is a fixer. Maybe they haven't seen a gay guy like me? Maybe I can be their exception to the blanketed thoughts. Maybe "I hate Jeff, but most gays I despise". Why I would find that tolerable is beyond me. As of late, I don't find it tolerable at all. I have been extremely sensitive to the scrutiny of others and have just grown tired of them quietly hating me. 
I have run into these little statements lately that I have picked up on. They have been so passive that I have let them go, ignoring them. But, like all of us in the LGBT family, I have been cut a lot by the words of others lately. They may be quiet jabs but they are beginning to hurt, alot. 
Another kind of hate is the kind where the person legitimately believes they are superior. I have to deal with a boss-type person almost daily and they believe that because we are locked up we are less then. Furthermore, because I have charges they don't like I am further down the line. Then we take that a step further and because I am gay and popular, that person gets infuriated and begins to cut me down.
It seems there is nothing I can do about either. If I complain I get moved, I lose my visits, I have to face the repercussions of it, not them. 
So when we take the heat of others, when we are hated, when we are treated differentently and ostracized. What then? Ignore it, be passively hated? I once read a quote "I'm not going to set myself on fire to keep someone else warm". I like that because its true. Why should we accept their bigotry? 
So there is the problem, but what is the solution? I heard someone talking about putting drops of dye into water. Take a cup of water and drop one drop of dye in to it. It disappears, right. But keep dropping drop after drop and eventually it submits and changes color. The key word is changes. The water is hate, the drops of dye is us. The water color changing is tolerance. The more interaction we have with people, the more we are in their lives and include them in ours the more "dye" we introduce. That's one idea for long term changes. Things like this take time. I also need realistic short term ideas for tolerating the wrath of others.
I could use your feedback, 

With Love
Jeff Utnage 823469 

Thursday, June 16, 2016

6-17-2016
Cracking The Recidivism Code
In order to seriously tackle recidivism we are going to need to look at it with new eyes. We are going to have to end the vengeful attitude of an eye for an eye. 
There are two root approaches to dealing with criminals. One is punishment. The other is treatment.
The punishment side is nurtured by those who need vengeance, retribution. I am not saying it as an entirely bad thing. Anyone who has been the victim of a criminal knows how hard it would be to love someone who wrongs them. By love I mean "treat". 
Punishment has been the main goal of the criminal justice system. In times past is was hangings or making them fight ungodly beasts for public entertainment or sending them to some remote island. That's how Australia was founded, btw. 
More recently criminals were out in segregation for long periods. Then, simple isolated by concrete walls.
But, when these things were being done criminal activity didn't stop...obviously. So they weren't a deterrent at all. Maybe for a few. But for the majority of criminals there is something else driving them. The Penitentiary system was first created in America in the 1600's. Its design was to isolate for a time so the man being driven to commit sin could find God and become Penitent. Basically get rid of the demons.
For some this notion sounds ridiculous and the modern Penitentiary system is more a harbouring for the criminally insane. But, it was a crack at fixing the broken rather then throwing them away. 
Which leads me to option two, treatment. This is the modern approach in which whenever its employed the local Government is chastised. I have a bold statement guys, brace yourself. Making sure that another human being suffers as much as the victim makes you no better then the perpetrators. In fact, it equalizes the two of you. I'm sorry, but that's my opinion. In fact, I'm not even sorry for it. Some guys can't be helped, or don't want help. And for them, yeah, lock them away. They will make themselves clearly known, trust me. 
But for those that want help and are capable of receiving it...why not give it to them? 

The reality is we are all effected by crime, so its in everyone's interest to get involved in recidivism. We need employers and community organizations to step up and take an active role in us. There are some of us who are investing in ourselves, we are still worth your time.

With Love
Jeff Utnage 823469
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FREEDOM FROM:
Falsified police reports

FREEDOM FROM:
Lying prosecutors

FREEDOM FROM:
Cruel & unusual punishment

FREEDOM FROM:
Torture

FREEDOM FROM:
Prison

FREEDOM FROM:
Harsh, severe, & decades long jail sentences

FREEDOM FROM:
Parole

FREEDOM FROM:
Supervised release

Fight FOR FREEDOM!!

FREEDOM FROM:
Unjust MANMADE laws

FREEDOM FROM:
UNjust law makers

FREEDOM FROM:
INjustice in the : Courts, Judges, Prosecutors & INcompetent lawyers

FREEDOM FROM:
Normal everyday Human behavior being CRIMINALIZED

Fight FOR FREEDOM!!

FREEDOM FROM:
Big Brother's vindictive retaliation

FREEDOM FROM:
Poverty

FREEDOM FROM:
Crime

FREEDOM FROM:
Drugs

FREEDOM FROM:
Violence

FREEDOM FROM:
Prejudices, hate, stereotypes, supremacists, & segregation, 

FREEDOM FROM:
Bondage

Fight For Freedom:

Fight For Our: Rights
Fight To Be: Citizens
Fight to have: CONTROL
Fight to have: A VOICE
Fight To Be: HEARD
Fight For:
Change
Fight For: 
Justice 
Fight for: 
The CHILDREN
Fight for:
The
Poor
Fight for:
The
Oppressed
Fight for:
The
Disenfranchised Fight for: The
Sick
Fight for: The
Disabled
Fight for: The
starving
Fight for: The
Neglected
Fight for: The
Abused
Fight for: The
Victims
Fight for: The
Innocent
Fight for: The
Refugees
Fight for: The
Seekers of asylum
Fight for:
HUMANITY
Fight for:
Respect
Fight for:
Dignity
Fight for:
Equality:
Fight for:
Truth
Fight for: The
PEOPLE
Fight for: 
Loved ones
Fight for: 
Strangers
Fight for: 
ANYONE WHO IS IN NEED!!!

Thanks for your time!!!

Jonathan Gordon 793350
H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center 
Aberdeen,WA 98520


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©WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

The idea of liberty in this One World Global Society is a HOAX

It's gonna be one nation under BIG BROTHER, all his associates, allies & folks

Everyone is is just a slave--tricked into believing they have a vote, then tricked into believing that that vote counts, then tricked into believing that they have a say & that what they say matters

WHAT ABOUT DISENFRANCHISEMENT?

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

Most of campaigning is: over the top displays of: Self- AGGRANDIZEMENT!!!


There's to groups:
The SLAVE Captors slash slaves Masters!!!

And the UNDER worked, UNDER underpaid, UNDER privileged, UNDER represented, & UNDER the master's boot SLAVE!!!

Who are tricked into believing we're living in a "Free Society"

Tricked into believing their service to the masters is appreciated, praiseworthy, & commendable

Big Brother really COULDN'T GIVE A F***

You just a PAWN

Even Big Brother's most trust worthy, hardworking, & dependable

Eventually at some point become forgotten about, throw aways & EXPENDABLE

When their usefulness is all USED UP

Discarded like trash

WHERE is the LIBERTY in that?

You're demise is INEVITABLE

After your pockets have been rabbit earred & BLED OUT like a gash

Society's brainwashed into believing only those who join the "Powers That Be's" forces & earn their good graces will be safe

But as soon as our views, our sight & modis operandi begins to strafe---

Dissention becomes INEVITABLE, the friction begins to chafe

And VOILÀ

You break off the main body like an iceberg, THEN you get BROKE OFF!!!

Labeled a traitor

Labeled treasonous

Labeled treacherous

Labeled UNDEMOCRATIC

Labeled UNAMERICAN

LABELED, LABELED, LABELED

Then Discarded like trash

WHERE is the LIBERTY in that?

DON'T BE FOOLED by harsh labels

Hiding in deliberate shrouds of secrecy is how the Colinizers
are enabled

Along with armies of blindly following & willing minions in the stable

Anyone's ideologies that aren't theira is considered: SLANTED like a roof's gable

Society's IDEA of truth is only a FABLE

Loyalty in the eyes of the Colonialists 
Only is a myth

Oaths & promises meaning nothing & slowly begin to FIZZ

Money, power, influence & the elected vote is a DEADLY combination

Before we know it, the world's gonna be run by ONE currency, under ONE bank, under ONE government under ONE Country, with ONE law under ONE court by authority of ONE 

COMMON Nation

Governed by ULTRA rich, ULTRA greedy, psychopathic, ULTRA bloodthirsty businessesmen who're fueled by an ULTRA LUST for COMPLETE DOMINATION!!!

We help their cause by putting them in power through Democratic processes, Democratic policy, & Democratic
nomination

If you don't believe in following their CULT, & worshipping them, & their IDOLS, then you might as well be a blasphemous abomination

Only to be Discarded like trash

The mentality is: "If you're not for us, you're AGAINST US! And by the way, in the meantime here's this contract by your own will & volition PLEASE sign over all your rights, your balls, your manhood & all your CASH!"

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

We DO THIS to ourselves--these are our elected politicians & cruel officials

Corruptions pours out of every branch: Administrative, Legislative, & Judicial

But once they get in office & we realized they did nothing but lie & break almost every promise in almost every speech

We ain't got the BALLS to call for them to be kicked out of office, to be PROSECUTED, or to be impeached

We get out hard earn MONEY, DIGNITY & RESPECT sucked from us like a LEACH

While them DIRTY ROTTEN apples smiles at press conferences & town hall meetings pretending to be a nice sweet Georgia Peach

We gleefully stand behind them applauding them yelling: "PREACH brother PREACH sister...PREACH!"

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

You can only be a FOOL for so long

Before you begin to regret your decisions

Walking around in blisslike ignorance

Conned, manipulated, deceived & lied to with surgical precision

With scare tactics we're taught it's wrong to speak out & go against the grain

Those who have the BALLS to stand up, are looked at with contempt & disdain

Viewed as insane & psychotic

Called: "Rabble Rousers" & UNPATRIOTIC

Only to be discarded like TRASH

Because STANDING UP--will only lead to complete anarchy, civil disorder & division

You can only walk around for so long with such biased, narrow, tunnel like vision

Before you hate the fact the person you put your faith in was a fake & played us like a SUCKERS

The colonist pulled down their pants then mooned us while our lips was puckered

Now we feel like such flakes finding our country is in a jam like Smuckers 

Thinking to yourself: "Man wasn't I a stupid f*****?"

"Why did this clown ever get our vote?"

"I never signed up to back up or agree to all this crazy policy he/she wrote"

"Man why ain't nobody pulled my coat?"

"Man is it just me, or do anyone else feel the garrote?"

We realize this ain't the smooth sailing love boat

That we had imagined, thinking the economy, taxes, regulations, policies, practices, procedures, & laws was really about to differ

Until the cold slap for reality to the face lets us know regulations, policies, practices, procedure, & laws only became more ambiguous & stiffer

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

Spend more money building prisons than schools so we stay locked up rather than educated

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

We not really ever living free, we're heavily surveiled, policed, & regulated

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

Big brother tapping into our laptops, PCs, & phones

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

Big brother setting up full body scanners, strip searching, speed traps, traffic cameras & manufacturing drones

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

Thanks for your time!!!

Jonathan Gordon 793350
H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center 
Aberdeen,WA 98520


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Thanks/Praise to God

©WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

The idea of liberty in this One World Global Society is a HOAX

It's gonna be one nation under BIG BROTHER, all his associates, allies & folks

Everyone is is just a slave--tricked into believing they have a vote, then tricked into believing that that vote counts, then tricked into believing that they have a say & that what they say matters

WHAT ABOUT DISENFRANCHISEMENT?

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

Most of campaigning is: over the top displays of: Self- AGGRANDIZEMENT!!!


There's to groups:
The SLAVE Captors slash slaves Masters!!!

And the UNDER worked, UNDER underpaid, UNDER privileged, UNDER represented, & UNDER the master's boot SLAVE!!!

Who are tricked into believing we're living in a "Free Society"

Tricked into believing their service to the masters is appreciated, praiseworthy, & commendable

Big Brother really COULDN'T GIVE A F***

You just a PAWN

Even Big Brother's most trust worthy, hardworking, & dependable

Eventually at some point become forgotten about, throw aways & EXPENDABLE

When their usefulness is all USED UP

Discarded like trash

WHERE is the LIBERTY in that?

You're demise is INEVITABLE

After your pockets have been rabbit earred & BLED OUT like a gash

Society's brainwashed into believing only those who join the "Powers That Be's" forces & earn their good graces will be safe

But as soon as our views, our sight & modis operandi begins to strafe---

Dissention becomes INEVITABLE, the friction begins to chafe

And VOILÀ

You break off the main body like an iceberg, THEN you get BROKE OFF!!!

Labeled a traitor

Labeled treasonous

Labeled treacherous

Labeled UNDEMOCRATIC

Labeled UNAMERICAN

LABELED, LABELED, LABELED

Then Discarded like trash

WHERE is the LIBERTY in that?

DON'T BE FOOLED by harsh labels

Hiding in deliberate shrouds of secrecy is how the Colinizers
are enabled

Along with armies of blindly following & willing minions in the stable

Anyone's ideologies that aren't theira is considered: SLANTED like a roof's gable

Society's IDEA of truth is only a FABLE

Loyalty in the eyes of the Colonialists 
Only is a myth

Oaths & promises meaning nothing & slowly begin to FIZZ

Money, power, influence & the elected vote is a DEADLY combination

Before we know it, the world's gonna be run by ONE currency, under ONE bank, under ONE government under ONE Country, with ONE law under ONE court by authority of ONE 

COMMON Nation

Governed by ULTRA rich, ULTRA greedy, psychopathic, ULTRA bloodthirsty businessesmen who're fueled by an ULTRA LUST for COMPLETE DOMINATION!!!

We help their cause by putting them in power through Democratic processes, Democratic policy, & Democratic
nomination

If you don't believe in following their CULT, & worshipping them, & their IDOLS, then you might as well be a blasphemous abomination

Only to be Discarded like trash

The mentality is: "If you're not for us, you're AGAINST US! And by the way, in the meantime here's this contract by your own will & volition PLEASE sign over all your rights, your balls, your manhood & all your CASH!"

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

We DO THIS to ourselves--these are our elected politicians & cruel officials

Corruptions pours out of every branch: Administrative, Legislative, & Judicial

But once they get in office & we realized they did nothing but lie & break almost every promise in almost every speech

We ain't got the BALLS to call for them to be kicked out of office, to be PROSECUTED, or to be impeached

We get out hard earn MONEY, DIGNITY & RESPECT sucked from us like a LEACH

While them DIRTY ROTTEN apples smiles at press conferences & town hall meetings pretending to be a nice sweet Georgia Peach

We gleefully stand behind them applauding them yelling: "PREACH brother PREACH sister...PREACH!"

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

You can only be a FOOL for so long

Before you begin to regret your decisions

Walking around in blisslike ignorance

Conned, manipulated, deceived & lied to with surgical precision

With scare tactics we're taught it's wrong to speak out & go against the grain

Those who have the BALLS to stand up, are looked at with contempt & disdain

Viewed as insane & psychotic

Called: "Rabble Rousers" & UNPATRIOTIC

Only to be discarded like TRASH

Because STANDING UP--will only lead to complete anarchy, civil disorder & division

You can only walk around for so long with such biased, narrow, tunnel like vision

Before you hate the fact the person you put your faith in was a fake & played us like a SUCKERS

The colonist pulled down their pants then mooned us while our lips was puckered

Now we feel like such flakes finding our country is in a jam like Smuckers 

Thinking to yourself: "Man wasn't I a stupid f*****?"

"Why did this clown ever get our vote?"

"I never signed up to back up or agree to all this crazy policy he/she wrote"

"Man why ain't nobody pulled my coat?"

"Man is it just me, or do anyone else feel the garrote?"

We realize this ain't the smooth sailing love boat

That we had imagined, thinking the economy, taxes, regulations, policies, practices, procedures, & laws was really about to differ

Until the cold slap for reality to the face lets us know regulations, policies, practices, procedure, & laws only became more ambiguous & stiffer

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

Spend more money building prisons than schools so we stay locked up rather than educated

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

We not really ever living free, we're heavily surveiled, policed, & regulated

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

Big brother tapping into our laptops, PCs, & phones

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

Big brother setting up full body scanners, strip searching, speed traps, traffic cameras & manufacturing drones

WHERE IS OUR LIBERTY?

Thanks for your time!!!

Jonathan Gordon 793350
H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center 
Aberdeen,WA 98520


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©CONQUER & DIVIDE:

Conquer & divide

The Colonists force you to choose a side

If you end up choosing the WRONG SIDE--
then it's: sayonara

Divide again & conquer

It's that GROUP mentality, most follow the WINNING team

Man this society is bonkers

The colonists number one thing is: PREVENTION!!!

Prevent & suppress problems before the ever even could occur

Throwing "Obstacles" in long term detention

To make an example of those with UNPATRIOTIC intentions

Then wheels of "Democracy" quit spinning & leave us ALL in a constant state of suspension

When new policies to restrict our LIBERTIES are implemented

By proxy innocent people SUFFER we call it: group SANCTIONS

IT'S ALL ABOUT CONTROL!!!

Control of the:
Mind

In school they trick us into
pledging allegiance

To Democracy, hypocrisy, &
malfeasance

Control of the:
economy, the markets, & adequate care of health

Control of the:
power, value & worth of money, products, goods, natural resources, personal possessions, & wealth

Control of the:
perceived value we place in money, products, goods, natural resources personal possessions, & wealth

Control of the:
Right we have to defend ourselves & bear arms

Control by: Convincing us the militarized police with their armored trucks, grenades, tazers, assault rifles, & battering rams, are here to protect & can't do no wrong or harm

Control of the:
Media's propaganda tool

Control of the:
Lies, & brainwashing we're fed in school 

Control of:
Racism, "history," propaganda, "facts," & fairy tales in our children's text books

Control of the:
ways we perceive OURSELVES & each other based off of gender, SEX & how we look!!

Control of the:
Population & birth rates

Control of through:
Genocide

Control of through:
War

And control through:
Hate

Control through:
Economic sanctions, trade embargoes, taxes, tariffs, & strict limitations

On who can cross the borders, seek political asylum, be a refugee & IMMIGRATION!!!

Control through:
Prejudice, racial, religious, & ethnic,
superiority!!!

Controlling:
Interaction, mixing, mingling, & socialization

Control through:
Decreasing mobilization

Scaring people into tucking their tales & SILENCING their
vocalization

Globalization

Is based off THEFT, transportation, storage, hoarding
& LOCALIZATION

Of: labor, skills, technology, materials, renewable & non renewable natural resources 

Using police FORCES

To enforce inhumane policies under the ever looming threat of imprisonment

Random acts of violence lets society know that their domain is: IMMINENT

And duly enforced

Truly as a first & last recourse

It is nothing that's been recently invented or newly endorsed

All the past conquerors methods are right there in front of us, it ain't nothing discreet

They sit it out waiting until our morale & drive deplete

Actively pulling strings & making moves until the right opportunity for their plans of TOTAL DOMINATION is complete

History is a cycle that always repeats

Up against thousands of years of a proven way of winning, who can compete?

What it boils down to us: The 1% pull the strings, call the shots, dominate , subjugate, & OWN the other 99%

This is their world they make the rules & we are just bystanders!!!

CAUGHT IN THE CROSSFIRE between greed & politics!!!

Thanks for your time!!!

Jonathan Gordon 793350
H2B115L
Stafford Creek Corrections Center 
Aberdeen,WA 98520


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